KIM KIM :D

Wow ~ it's been soooo long since i've entered here..

it's dead and it's the BEST place for me to put all my sad stuffs in here -.-

i can't take it anymore,...

You know ... i can't feel your love anymore ?
i try my very best to put a smile to everything though it hurts everytime a reply comes back,..

I don'T know what has got into you ?

i mean , like .... one second you were toooo caring and now, you don't even give a damn anymore ? don't you love me anymore? :'(

it's like, your not the person i knew already ?

your already like a so called " changed " person.

which i'm not used to anymore ?

did i hurt you too much till you became like this?

i know you did all this caring like,
etc.
: don't lepak
: don't talk like minah's
: don't scold bad words

and so on and so on....

I understand why , and i just said yes to it cause i know i'm not only doing this for you ?

but i'm also doing this for myself .. for my own good . but now, it's totally different already ?

i seriously don't feel your love ? i don't feel your caring anymore ? i don't feel your happy texting me ? i don't feel your concern ? i don't feel you anymore ? the OLD you ! why ? O.O ...

i can't take it anymore...

you don't know what i'm feeling now,

everything there, was just a FAKE smile, you think i'm happy now ?

NO, your wrong ..

i don't know what you've gone through , cause you never told me ALL the things you hated about me from the VERY start ...

i know i got to know it by myself, but how ?!?!?

i'm not with you every single time ?

all i know is your favourite stuffs ? where you live, who are your parents, what type of person you are , and on and on ...

You know, every morning i will always ask you go with your friends not cause i wanna be with my friends, it's because i know you have to be with your friends too...

sometimes i'm really very jealous with some of them?

like example, some places where your not with us ,

Sabrina, have din beside her.

amalina with faisarah,

and I ? ALONE , URGH .....

i hate this ! I hate this ! i hate this ! i hate this !

why is this happening to me ?!?!? like COMMON ON !! who likes to be alone ....

i'm like the crazy one putting all the smiles and all now,

why ? i can't think of reason now :'(

i want the OLD us,

i never thought love would be this pain ...

After puasa , N-Level coming, study,study, study, N-Level then school holiday again?

how am i suppose to be with you everyday ? I seriously want you beside me the whole day .

but i can't do that ... sometimes, i wanna call you out but i find it hard, cause i was afraid you would be tired, sleepy or something? not because i don't need you to be there with me ? I need you but i just can't bring myself to ask you as i was afraid .

waaaaa ~~~ i don't know already uh.....

the moment you said about religion again.....

mind blank ................

the moment you said,

what you want do, you do

what you want say, you say

all those promises , just forget

who you want lepak with or what you don't care anymore .

how could you say this? You don't wanna care anymore? aren't you my boyfriend ? so, it's like your washing your hands off me now ?

yeah sure, go on doing this .....

I'm VERY happy -.- ...

WHAT'S SO GOOD ABOUT FACEBOOK ?!?!?

kay fine, not the time to be jealous now -.-

I'm sooo tired of this already,

jealous this, jealous that ....

for what feel that ....

now also every fading ....

what's the use !!!!!

the moment i look at our OLD messages, i just can't take it anymore,

tears would be rolling down my cheeks, but not because i'm sad or what, but because

I'M VERY HAPPY :')

i would rewind to the past to think about the way we messaged, how sweet and caring you were... all those times, can never be in the future now :'(

i just really hope you could feel me somewhere ....

somewhere near your heart again <3

Why must i always have enemies?
is it wrong to hang out with guys?
i know you girls are jealous?,
but believe it or not,
i will not fall for your "GUYS"!
i have my own feelings, why would i wanna steal "YOURS"?
why must you girls be jealous?,
i'm just trying to be friendly here?
H-E-L-L-O?
is it a bad thing?
i'm not trying to pin - point,
but it's the fucking damn TRUTH!?
I've known you all for so many years,
and yet, your accusing me now?
PLEASE, can we stop this?
all i want is our class would be in PEACE?
NO WAR!

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Why is it so hard for me to choose?
one two three
------ ----- -------
handsome handsome handsome
cute cute cute
taller skinnier just right
kind taller alittle taller
sweet sweet sweet
romantic romantic gentlemen
likes me likes me don't know his feelings for me
got feelings no feelings not much feeling

i'm really feeling irritated now,
are they like playing with my feelings?
i'm really confused right now.
i think i don't wanna get involve in all this stupid thing called,
L O V E.
haish~
i'm sick and tired already
k? BYE!

today woke up by Faisarah's message. LOL.
then slept awhile again...
then woke up at 7.45am,
getting ready for Modern Dance -.-"
B-O-R-I-N-G!!!
then during dance I did count downs to P-A-R-T-Y!!!

then went home,
KINDA TIRED...
then hurried change,
asked Sabrina to come to my house to help me carry things
cause i carrying kinda alot...
then at 1.15pm she arrived.
cooked hotdog's & Nugget's ...
JUST IN CASE.
then when there,
left KINGSTON!!!
he SO slow de...
so called and called and called...
then he arrived,
EVERYONE was shouting at him
HAHA! Cute(:
then Kingston kept taking my cap, haha.
but he wear, not bad ugh(:
then reached Sembawang park,
B U T
they haven started the fire yet,
O-M-G !!!
Lucky i brought FRIED RICE!
we waited all the way from 2+ - 6pm there!!!
and Sabrina, Faisarah, Amalina and Yong Tat kept saying me and Kingston " YANNOE ".
they all argh...
keep thinking wrongly about us (:
like what we 2 say,
WE ARE JUST LIKE BROTHERS AND SISTERS (:
then Kingston, Melody and Yong Tat went off first...
So sad Kingston was going...
he was the only one who was entertaining me...
Shahfudin was next to disturb me. HAHA.
kept taking my cap too...
and faiz also...
stayed there until 8pm....
didn't really enjoyed much -.-"
i should have followed Kingston all...
i didn't even ate anything,
all i ate was my fried rice -.-"
i should have just stayed at home
haish, never mind...
at least I got to meet my my friends(:
MISSED them many manys! HEHE.

P/S : WHOLE WEEK MODERN DANCE!!! OMG.

Haish,
another "friend" relationship has just flown away,...
i just don't get it,
when will i ever understand what's the meaning ?
everytime it's starting to fire up,
A gust of wind will just blow it away,
what a waste of it.
hate this many many-.-"
i think next time i should not take it seriously anymore hur.

ANYWAY:
just finished buying EVERYTHING i wanted(:
shopping is STOPPED alrdy.
enjoyments is a GO GO GO! (:
only hate is
MODERN DANCE IS COMING !!!
O-M-G....
7-11 June : 9am - 12pm!
Gonna suffer ALOT ...

SINGLE IS THE BEST! -.-"

Starting to LOVE you but....

Today meet Sabrina around 1pm,...
i was late as she told me that she would message me if she's going out of her house,
but she forgot,...
lucky i called her house and her maid said she went out already?
LOL.
been sneezing for many times since morning until now!
wonder hows thinking of me? haha! JOKING!
then meet her then she went to buy SOMETHING(:
hehe, then went to pasamalam buy her shorts,..
then we headed to library then sat there awhile then off we went to marsiling (=
COOL. (: haha,
first thing we did was to go toilet!(: haha! URGENT
then i bought a hoodie jacket and a short,...
spent around $12...
really wasting alot and alot and alot of money already...
i already bought
- little miss naughty shirt $8
- hoodie jacket $6
-shorts $6
-checkered hairband $3.30
-checkered shirt $10
-belt $5
-contact lens( Blue ) $18
-friendship band on leg $1

left to buy with is
- checkered shoes $17/$18
-Cap/hat $13
-watch $10
-skinny jeans $18 ( i think? )
-blue bag $15.90
-school shoes $20

i hope i have enough money to buy all that things,...
i wanna save money but i got things to buy too...
kinda stressed whether to buy or not...
waiting for Friday and Saturday to come!
OMG, gonna go shopping again!!!(:

ouh yah,...
selling
Winnie the poohs = 1 for $1
and my current black/red bag = $10
hope someone would buy,
as i need someone to take my current bag so that i could buy a new one...

hmmm~ today SOMEONE was sad...
haha(: so needed my shoulder,...
so i didn't mind though...
people sad, must be always there for them marh(:
doesn't mean anything though!
i just treats HIM like my LITTLE brother(:
haha!
owwww, poor thing seyy he..."
don't worry, i'll be there to support you boy!(:

school was okay,...
after school was crazy!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATIKA!
haha
OMG JUNE HOLIDAYS HERE I COME!!! :D

haish, a heart is meant for 1 person only,
you can't put 2 person in a heart,
must there ALWAYS be a 3 party in a relationship-.-
-.- haish,....

today was boring,...
nothing to do hur,
life so boring !
what else can we do in this world?
such life, so fxck up right now,
hate this kind of life.
can't people just LOVE one person!
must they love many people-.-
what's the used anyway?
your just gonna get hurt only.
if anything happens, i really don't know what to do now.
i'm sick and tired of it already.
i just wished that i can fly to space and be alone there for a moment.