it's dead and it's the BEST place for me to put all my sad stuffs in here -.-

i can't take it anymore,...

You know ... i can't feel your love anymore ?
i try my very best to put a smile to everything though it hurts everytime a reply comes back,..

I don'T know what has got into you ?

i mean , like .... one second you were toooo caring and now, you don't even give a damn anymore ? don't you love me anymore? :'(

it's like, your not the person i knew already ?

your already like a so called " changed " person.

which i'm not used to anymore ?

did i hurt you too much till you became like this?

i know you did all this caring like,
etc.
: don't lepak
: don't talk like minah's
: don't scold bad words

and so on and so on....

I understand why , and i just said yes to it cause i know i'm not only doing this for you ?

but i'm also doing this for myself .. for my own good . but now, it's totally different already ?

i seriously don't feel your love ? i don't feel your caring anymore ? i don't feel your happy texting me ? i don't feel your concern ? i don't feel you anymore ? the OLD you ! why ? O.O ...

i can't take it anymore...

you don't know what i'm feeling now,

everything there, was just a FAKE smile, you think i'm happy now ?

NO, your wrong ..

i don't know what you've gone through , cause you never told me ALL the things you hated about me from the VERY start ...

i know i got to know it by myself, but how ?!?!?

i'm not with you every single time ?

all i know is your favourite stuffs ? where you live, who are your parents, what type of person you are , and on and on ...

You know, every morning i will always ask you go with your friends not cause i wanna be with my friends, it's because i know you have to be with your friends too...

sometimes i'm really very jealous with some of them?

like example, some places where your not with us ,

Sabrina, have din beside her.

amalina with faisarah,

and I ? ALONE , URGH .....

i hate this ! I hate this ! i hate this ! i hate this !

why is this happening to me ?!?!? like COMMON ON !! who likes to be alone ....

i'm like the crazy one putting all the smiles and all now,

why ? i can't think of reason now :'(

i want the OLD us,

i never thought love would be this pain ...

After puasa , N-Level coming, study,study, study, N-Level then school holiday again?

how am i suppose to be with you everyday ? I seriously want you beside me the whole day .

but i can't do that ... sometimes, i wanna call you out but i find it hard, cause i was afraid you would be tired, sleepy or something? not because i don't need you to be there with me ? I need you but i just can't bring myself to ask you as i was afraid .

waaaaa ~~~ i don't know already uh.....

the moment you said about religion again.....

mind blank ................

the moment you said,

what you want do, you do

what you want say, you say

all those promises , just forget

who you want lepak with or what you don't care anymore .

how could you say this? You don't wanna care anymore? aren't you my boyfriend ? so, it's like your washing your hands off me now ?

yeah sure, go on doing this .....

I'm VERY happy -.- ...

WHAT'S SO GOOD ABOUT FACEBOOK ?!?!?

kay fine, not the time to be jealous now -.-

I'm sooo tired of this already,

jealous this, jealous that ....

for what feel that ....

now also every fading ....

what's the use !!!!!

the moment i look at our OLD messages, i just can't take it anymore,

tears would be rolling down my cheeks, but not because i'm sad or what, but because

I'M VERY HAPPY :')

i would rewind to the past to think about the way we messaged, how sweet and caring you were... all those times, can never be in the future now :'(

i just really hope you could feel me somewhere ....

somewhere near your heart again <3